
Alarm Bells Ringing...
Changeling
Mike Oldfield
Virgin Books
May 2007
Chronicling his uneasy relationship with the world and just about everyone in it, Mike Oldfield traces his sense of alienation back to birth trauma and the slow unravelling of his parent’s marriage. An insular child who “felt different” to his peers, Oldfield is the classic outsider figure, someone whose inability to pick up on the norms of social interaction suggests he’s operating somewhere on the autism spectrum disorder.
Though he paints a fond portrait of his early years, this middle class idyll was undermined by his mother’s mental illness and alcoholism. With his mother spending long periods away from the family home (euphemistically ‘resting’ in a sanatorium), he developed a close relationship with his father, occasionally accompanying him on his rounds as a doctor, but was increasingly troubled by tensions caused by his parent’s difficulties.
Refuge was sought and found in music, eaching himself guitar by playing along with records. Long hours would be spent obsessively returning the needle and returning to a spot on the album until he had mastered it. It’s easy to see how this kind of attention to detail would stand him in good stead when it came to his later musical projects.
Oldfield suffers the curious paradox of being a private person who thrives when operating in the very public field of entertaining people. Playing in the 60s pub and club folk scene with friends and his sister convinced him he liked the approval of others. However, it was during his stint as the teenage bassist in Kevin Ayers’ post-Soft Machine band that he discovered that what he really wanted was to be taken seriously. With something of a serious chip on his shoulder he admits to feeling resentment at being referred to as “young Michael” by his admittedly much older band mates.
It was this umbrage that provided the impetus to record Tubular Bells, his way of making the world sit up and notice him. Living proof that success is no guarantee of happiness, he became even more upset when just about every soul in the world started taking him very seriously indeed.
After years of gently hitting the bottle, struggling with his ambivalence to his own post-Bells output and the strained relationship with his parents, therapy of one sort or another has provided him with a kind of redemption.
One gets the feeling that this book began as part of that recovery process but although the big issues in his life are referred to, somewhat frustratingly they’re never fully explored or evaluated. Perhaps tellingly, his odd relationship with Richard Branson (his music publisher, record label and manager) is alluded to but again Oldfield pulls his punches.
Clearly Branson is something of a father-figure to Oldfield and though he frequently refers to the tycoon as a friend, one can’t help but conclude that a friend who charges him a 20% on all of Oldfield’s earning above and beyond all the other commissions he was raking in, isn’t that much of a mate at all.
Anyone wanting any technical insights about Oldfield’s music will have to look elsewhere. The real problem with this book is that so will anyone looking for any real insights to his emotions and motivations. Defensive to the point of giving out little more than name, rank and serial number, Oldfield’s curiously evasive and stilted writing style gives little away.
After reading this it’s impossible not to agree with Philip Larkin’s glum summary of upbringing and its subsequent fall-out in his poem "This Be The Verse:
“They fuck you up, your mum and dad.
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.”