I’m currently moving between two books both of them about war and its consequences: Nuremburg – Evil On Trial by James Owen and Vietnam: The Definitive Oral History Told From Both Sides by Christian G Appy. All of my adult life I’ve been interested in these two conflicts though until today I’ve never really thought about why and what got me started.
“As a child, I refought the war with plastic planes and imagination: I sank Tirpitz, blew up the Mohne dam, all these and more, I was the saviour of the Nation!”sang Peter Hammill on “No More (the Sub-Mariner)”, accurately describing the playtime habits of post-war schoolboys such as myself.
Uncomplicated by moral come-backthere was something noble about dropping pretend bombs or rat-tat-tating off rounds into the ranks of the enemy.
It was good clean fun played out with pals, Airfix kits and the stilted heroics of Action Man.
Though it began to increasingly take up the news reports of the Six O' Clock bulletins, the Vietnam War was far enough away so as not to penetrate too far into my childhood world of square-jawed heroes such as Jack Hawkins, Kenneth More, or the black and white heroics of Commando magazine.
Reading through these two books is hard work. Unlike other accounts I’ve read on WW2 and Vietnam these come largely unmediated by their respective authors save for contextual links and the like.
In the case of Nuremburg, the bare transcripts from those in the dock conveys a real sense of the self-serving obfuscation, hair-splitting and excuses emanating from the accused. It can be chilling stuff.
Hans Frank, who served as Governor of Poland from 1939 – 1944, had no truck with colleagues who wriggled between semantics, meaning or even guilt: “We can knock our heads against the wall but it doesn’t change the facts. Our lawyers have to do the talking for us but there is no use our trying to deny what all of the world knows…Ja, it was a great Reich while it lasted.”
Tough stuff indeed.
Today I left the Yellow Room for a meeting with Voiceprint label supremo, Rob Ayling. The Vietnam book accompanied my journey. Although Rob and I have met on a couple of occasions in the past (Keith Tippett gigs and the like) this was the first time I’d parked up in the Voiceprint offices.
Our conversation about the soon-to-be-expanding Bill Bruford catalogue could probably have been done by phone or email but sometimes it’s good to meet face to face and follow the spontaneous meanderings of unplanned conversation. One such moment occurred when Rob took me to his local greasy spoon, Curly’s, for some good grub and a decent cup of tea.
Rob and I stumbled into a conversation about the work of director Tony Palmer, whose work Voiceprint are handling, and in particular Palmer's documentary about the music and politics of the 60s, All My Loving which I saw when it was first screened on television in 1968.
By the age of nine or ten music began to seriously encroach upon my models and make-believe wars. Totally influenced by my sister’s musical interests I was a fan of the Fab Four. So when the BBC screened a heavily trailed documentary that included The Beatles I lobbied hard for my mother to let me stay up late to watch it.
All My Loving featured interviews with Paul McCartney, Pete Townsend, Frank Zappa, and others – the majority of whom were unknown to me. I can’t really recall much (if anything) about what they said but I do remember that the images of pop festivals and flower power were intercut with scenes of Nazi brutality and the Vietnam War.
I had never seen any footage from the concentration camps before or the leering brutality of a uniformed officer making fun of a scared elderly Jewish woman on her knees, poking her with his riding crop. Though I tried to maintain a brave face throughout the documentary it was getting more difficult by the minute.
Then, in one scene that left me utterly devastated and in tears later that night, the Vietnam War suddenly caught up with me and turned my notions of war as some kind of noble, heroic pastime totally upside down and inside out.
It was the footage captured by an NBC news team: the summary execution of a VC prisoner by a South Vietnamese police captain in a street. In that instant, so mundane in its workmanlike implementation and lack of drama, the innocence of my childhood came to an abrupt end. The scene gave me nightmares for weeks but I couldn’t let on to my parents or anyone else. Nobody else at school had seen the show and it became increasingly difficult for me to play our wargames of death and destruction with the same unthinking abandon .
It seemed impossible to reconcile our innocent version of war with the footage of that VC soldier, moving in one unblinking second from life to death;falling without ceremony onto the tarmac, his blood spurting from his head in a gory fountain onto the tarmac beneath him.
Though I tried very hard at the time I don't think I ever made it back to the cocoon of my childhood world. All my reading about WW2 and Vietnam stems from that one traumatic night in 1968 and All My Loving.